The Footsteps

The footsteps of my journey echo clear and loud,
i would have been lost in the crowd.
Its way beyond comprehension for me and for you,
to deny it all would be absurd!

The footsteps, they say, never lie
i tried to ignore it, overcome it, but couldn't succeed
The toughts in me head say,
if it hadn't been for you, i wouldn't have come afar.

Thou shalt stay with me forever,
its not my command but a wish.
If i could behold you and whisper in your ears,
Life became a blessing the day you entered it.

The footsteps of love would remain etched in my memory,
if i may, i would never be able to thank you.
The words, as they may sound untrue to you,
come straight from the soul, are waiting to be owned by you.

! Coward !

Hey all,

I know its been a long time, and yeah i haven't given complete justice to the promise i made while starting this blog..but not even a single day went by when i didn't think about fullfilling my blog promise :(

So much happened in the past couple of months, i don't know how to list them all, but a few things stand out :

1. I got settled in a job with a bpo, and though its not a calling profile, its not even what i am supposed to do after working my ass hard to complete four years of Engineering studies ! However, the money is not an issue that i am facing right now ;-)

2. I had this weird incidence sometime back, that when i think about it, it gives me shivers. Though i am supposed to be a coward as an outcome of that event, i don't regret running away from the situation. I was driving, and then pulled over to drop someone, and the next moment, a strong guy (yeah, i accept, he had a better built than me) on a bike surfaced near my window and asked me to lower the glasses. I did, however, something inside me just stopped me short and i pulled down just enought to let that guy talk to me one on one. Then, he asked me to come out of the car...i brain acted smart enough to not just do that. The next thing i remember is a run-chase sequence that would make a bollywood potboiler a hit. At the next light, the guy managed to get my car blocked and he banged on the car (some dents are still afresh). However, i still appreciate my brain that it worked fine...and the way i maneouvered the roads and drove after that...would remain etched inside my heart forever. But, what happened (don't know for sure, why it happened !) is not what frightens me. I get shivers when i think about what i read in the newspapers about lives ending in road-rage on delhi roads, and about how easily people lose patience. I get terrified when i think about the fact that if my brain had managed to stop working or, my adrenaline would have pumped me enough to get into a tussle with that pyscho, god knows if i would have found my name there in the newspapers the next day :O

3. I am dead stuck in the fight between my ambitions and the current economic recession, i made this list of what i plan to achieve in next 3, 5, 10..and so on, years. I know the plans are big, but i believe in the adage "Shoot for the stars, you will land up in the sky" :D

4. I managed to write a song, all this while ;-)

Set me free, set me flying,

I can't live on, you know i'm dying,

Think of pain as my right,

not that i plan to fight it,

from what i have,

and what i ought to be,

suffering is what i get.

The pain seems an ecstasy,

i don't wanna backout.

I stand by my faith,

searching for a chance.

A chance to live and a chance to try,

coz i want to fly,

dream like i never had,

with her by my side,

i should care less.

Care less for the world so mean,

the life i want, would they ever give?

should i care about them, would i ever live?

The answers i can't find,

know for sure, you are by my side.

Set me free, set me flying,
I can't live on, you know i'm dying,

I'v never been the one!

Heya all,
I know i'v written a lot of crap all this while. So i thought why not try something new. As i sat down to write down this blog with a fresh idea, i thought of writing down a song (yeah, i'v written a number of songs). As soon as the thought struck, my brain started playing with words, deep inside it mess of nerves and whatever it has that makes it think :O

Anywys, coming back to this new idea, i somehow feel as if i can't completely trust my brain for giving me original thoughts. When i write something down on a piece of paper, it keeps hitting me as if i have read something like that earlier. I guess my brain makes a copy of something interesting i read and hide it at the back of its messy jungle of nerves and cells, somewhere deep down in the unconciousness. Always there but never visible. And when i start writing something it rushes down to that area and pull up some part of that hidden text to my concious level making it look original and somehow creating this doubt of putting me into copywrite trouble.
As complex as the world can get.

So now, finally coming back to the song. This song goes out to someone special, someone extremely close to my heart. I am confused whether she would like it or not. So before i play this out on guitar for her, i need your suggestions friend. Here it goes :

I'v never been the one to make you cry,
I'v never found a reason for this strife,
Was it me who's let you down?
Was it love that brought you to ground?

Hey beautiful, why'd you walk out on me?
Leaving me screaming with this pain.
I was meant to be the one for you,
Still you left me with so much disdain.

Whatever happened, I know it hurt you too.
Everything came just out of the blue.
Now that its over for good,
lets start afresh and make our dreams come true.

I would be the one to make you smile.
To wash your tears and live a new life.
I would be the one to make you cry.
Lets hold hands, so together we could fly.

That's about it, i guess. I actually sat down to write down a song. I don't think it would actually qualify as a song. But, whatever, its written with true feelings. Suggest whatever you can :)

bye for now.